why this lei?
Friday, August 3, 2007
♥ 6:04 AM
haiz i feel tat sum of my frenz are ignorin me la can..
and i feel not belong to any group of frenz lol can..
haiz..why tis lei?
i admit tat i anti-social so wad..
sumtimes i jus ask myself why m i lyk tat de lei?
ppl dere is sumthing tat i wanna tell..
i lose hope of doin things..
no more confident liao
no mood in anything..
jus feelin tat ppl around me dun really noe me at all..
i noe im irritatin sorry if im i will not disturb u all anymore..
no one care 4 me tats the best cos i not worth it so ya..
ya im emo la happy..keep on sayin im emo..
fine la im a emo kid tat no one wan to mix wif happy now..
i no frenz ke yi le ma?
damm sad and lonely happy now..
abt u ppl hv done to me..
make a veri big change in my life lol..
so wad i noe no one care abt me liao..
the onli perso hu care abt me is myself..
all i onli can depend on is myself..
frenz i hv is still myself..
myself to depend on the hv a better life in the future lol..
no one wanna help me in this so i decided
to walk this path of road myself liao ..
i will not depand on anyone anymore..
u ppl jus wan to bring me harm tats all i noe..
u ppl will not try to share wad u hv wif me..
love corcern care..all..
4get it lol nvm i hv it myself i dun wan urs...
i lose everything in life..
wad can i still do u tell me la can..
i think i nid to find sum1 to tok to everytime liao le..
sum1 willin to be dere 4 me..
a shoulder for to cry on..
sum1 to cheer me up wen the emo gal is down..
sum1 dun look down on me "emo gal"
i dunno wad to sae now...
dunno how to sae the rest lol..
my life jus white and black now..
no life in anything..
useless cant help anyone..
hopeless cant do anything rite..
failure cant pass anything..
EVERYTHING JUS LOSE LYK IN 1MIN CAN..
everything lei..gone i think they will not cum back to me liao le can..
as wad my darlin sae to me jus now..
she sae until alot of time liao ..
tis is wad she sae to me..
so wad if her make me happy
she jus dun feel i happy..
she cant stand it
i noe it 4 myself..
see wad i sae i jus worthless and hopeless ard my frenz all..
sorry darling im really sorry to make u feel so pissed wif me..
wad my darling tell me is true la..i cant blame her oso..
why mus i always bother abt wad other sae abt me
why i dun give myself the freedom to chosse but let others choose 4 me..
i have to cum up wif my decision to do wad i wan wad i lyk..
and i should stick to it...
NOW I CHOOSE:
i will not bother abt wad ppl sae abt me..
i jus do wad i lyk wad i feel lyk doin tats all..
thanz opy..thanz alot 4 ur help..make me awake..
so it will not be to late 4me..
i will promise tat i will do it jus 4 u k..
thanz..love u darling..
i will not break this promise de..i will not de..
sorry to u anyway darling
