worse day ever..
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
♥ 5:52 AM
actually my mood 4 the day is veri good and happy de lol..
in class so slack 2day MR SENG nvr cum 2day 4 lesson so free..
then i lyk use my hp and mp4 in class..
my frenz sae they are veri shock abt it..
DURING CCA...
tats where the nightmare started..
wen it start i still veri happy de..
abt 5 plus it started..WHY TIS HAPPEN??
then nvm i dun care abt it..
then after trainin i cried cos i jus feel tat
i jus cant do it liao le..
i tried to control my feelings liao le..
but i still can ..
they are jus too much..
go and tell ppl ta i scold her FUCKIN BITCH..
which i nvr even scold anyone in the team 2day la can..
is lyk i can feel tat ppl in the team dun trust me liao le lol..
so wad for i still wan their trust now on use liao le..
cos of HER..so pissed wif her..
i GIVE UP i dunno wad i can do now liao la..
is lyk the team sae they themselves wanna train hard 4 next year..
but now i think they totally 4got abt wad we wan to aim..
so wad if i train my veri best every trainin..
if the team slack i train so hard 4 wad no point lol..
I CANT FIND MUCH TRUST IN THE TEAM LIAO...i choose to give up..alwways wen i try my best sth will happen tat day de..
i dun wan to give up..i jus cant..
but the ppl in the team make me feel this way..
i train hard myself cant really help the team itself..
i cant play myself to win..
ALL I WAN IS THE TEAM I HAVE WORK HARD TOWARDS WAD WE AIM 4 SO LONG..im no longer the past me i have change liao le..
i love this CCA which im in now..
but wad i get in the end is NOTHIN..
so i choose to walk this path tat i choose all by myself..
i dun nid any help any more..
i will still be strong to continue the path i choose to the end..
i will keep on tryin de.
