every beat of my heart

Saturday, September 8, 2007

♥ 1:03 AM

today i dunno wad i really wanna sae la..
i jus wanna noe wad type of person m i la??
ppl pls tell me lei..
i wonderin m i selfish..emo(i think)..
aiya dunno la..
i veri confused abt wad ppl think of me la can..
why u guys lyk to sae abt me de..
but i jus wan to tell u tis:
i not goin to care abt wad u sae abt me la k..
so if u wan to sae go on lol..
i dun wan to care abt it oso la..
do ahead la why mus i bother so much u ppl sae ar?

godsisters..godkor..darlings thanz alot 4 ur help
thanz 4 being dere wif me all the time when i nid u guys..
i hope u guys will pass ur exam wif flyin colours..
take care n love ya..
byee

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

♥ 7:56 AM

durin the KL TRIP..
i so damm happy la can..
i buy alot of things lyk gifts all 4:
my godsisters...
my darling..
my family..
my frenz..
so damm happy buyin la can..
but i still hv to buy more gifts la..
cos i dun hv enough 4 all of them ma.
so i goin to buy 4 em this few days lol..
hahas..
damm fun la..
got nth to sae liao le lol..
byee guys..
i love u..
esp my darling n godsisters..

Thursday, August 30, 2007

♥ 6:48 AM

abit sad today..

i cried in the bus wen all the sec3 all go to the

army open house..

i think no one noe tat i cried lol..

then i on the music until full blast..

i wonderin why i ceried at 1st la..

i noe why..

cos i feel lonely la..no one tokin to me can..

my good fren enjoyin wif their gang then left me out la

haiz i jus wonder whether i really hv frenz ard me or not lol can..

but in the end the trip to the army open house is damm fun la..

i wen to the xtreme world la can..

me zeb esther vicky n yen ton..

we wen to do the PFT so damm fun la..

hahas..after tat we wen to play flyin fox..

i 1st time try la can..

so damm scary la can..

3 lvl high can..i dun dare cum down at 1st la can..

then ppl downstairs supportin la..

hahas..

lyk the twin..zhou..yuwen..xiaojun..many more la..

thanz guys 4 ur support la can..

damm scary la..

and MR SENG u owe us pizza..

weiyaya dare to do he sae she dun dare end up weiyaya go play lol..

weiyaya nice one la..

iloveyou sia...

but i thing i dun lyk is we dun hv much time lol..

so damm little time to play onli la..

damm sad..

then i wonderin how is the day 2morrow lol..

i think i may damm sad lol..

cant post then i can chat wif my 2 darling lol..

then i dunno whether i can sms ppl or not la can..

but i got sth to tell me darling..

u 2 are the best la can..

iloveyou!

i hope tat the trip i will be damm happy de lol..

so ya..take care guys wen i not in singapore k esp my darling..

then mon got to go 4 trg la.

i think i will be damm tierd de lol can..

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

♥ 6:23 AM

2day so damm ediot la..
cos of sumone in 3c pissed me off lol..
make me feel so pissed la..
then after a few lessons over i dun care abt it liao le lol..
haiz why tis happen to me de lol.
nvm dun wish to tok abt it liao le lol..
today i dun really hv the mood to rite liao le..
wen for cip onli 1 hr..
nvr go 4 cheer..
sorry abt it ar guys frm 3 b tat i nver help u all wif the cheer..
so damm sorry..
i think i feel sad 4 the day lol..haiz sian la dunno wad to sae liao le

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

♥ 6:53 AM

27 AUG'07
today actually i cant go de..
but end up i still go lol..
all of us meet then all the volleyballers wen dere 2gether lol..
cedar lei..so wad they play veri good..
ppl dun sae we will lose to em..
at esle we try our best to fight for it can liao le..
does not matter we win or not lol..
is the process tat we go though is the most inportant part of all..
at esle we learn sth frm our mistakes k..
then poor mee ling is been hit at the head lol..
u ok ma?then so sorry to the cedar gal which my ball hit ur shoulder k..
so ya la..
wooo...really they are veri strong la..
veri ball spike spike lol..dunno lyk wanna kill ppl lyk tat lol..
tell u 1day chij sjc might be better than u guys in the future lol..
hahas..i hope tis day will cum soon..
i tell myself tat no matter wad i hv to control my emotion lol..
wen i hv my break i wen down i tell couch tat i go re-fill water..
end up i playin downstairs wif my godsisters n the sec1 lol..
hahas..
volleyballers dun be upset tat we lose to em k..
we mus prove to the rest tat we can do better than em k..
we cum back skool practise more k..
i love you guys!!

28AUG'07
early in the morin play volleyball lol..
then for the 1st lesson ppl pissed me off can..
wad is wrong wif my hair..
oso not ur hair worry so much for wad la..
sae sae sae..i dun lyk it k..
such s bloody bitch can..
then the mood is bad lol..
haiz sian lol..
2day rain the whole day then cant play volleyball outside lol damm sad can..
darling i hope u can be dere wif me can..damm sad n pissed lol..
hahas..nice to hv my godsisters n darling ard wif me..
then i will not be all alone by myself la..
thanz n i love u guys!!
take care of urself k guys..
cya in skool 2morrow then play volleyball 2morrow k..byee gtg now..
love ya..hugs n kisses jus 4 you!

Sunday, August 26, 2007

♥ 5:36 AM

2day so damm shockin la can..
my family n i wen to compass lol..
u noe hu we saw ma??
MR SENG lei n his family la..
onli saw his younger son la..
then he walk towards my table la can..
then i hv a shock lol..i thought hu can..
pls la mr seng next time dun giv me a shock lol..
then my mum tok to him as usually..
my see any of my teacher she always does tat lol..
ask the teacher how i behave in class..
how is my result..
i good ma..
many more la k..
then my mum n mr seng face ar veri scary la can..
i hv no idea wad they are tokin la..
they keep on lookin at me dunno 4 wad la..
so ya..then i ask esther n angie wad they r tryin to sae lol..
cos we cant really hear wad they sae..
then i ask em whether i can go 2morrow ma?
then i hv no idea whether im goin or not lol..
but i really wan to go lol..
play friendly match wif cedar gals..
wonder SJC against CEDAR..
will we win em?
hu noe so ya..
gtg now pack my things for the KL trip tis cumin friday lol..
which it is oso TEACHER'S DAY!!
hahas..

Saturday, August 25, 2007

♥ 6:50 AM

2day ar..

nth really happen lol..

but i wan to go on mon to cedar girls skool to play friendly match la can..

n my godsisters wan to 2go oso..

n myself i wan to go la can..

sum1 tel m e tat they are damm strong la..

the more i wan to prove em tat sjc volleyballers r oso good too..

we can win de is jus we dun really cooperate wif one another tats all lol..

dun worry we will improve on it oso de k..

we can show u guys we can do it de lol..

so ya..SJC volleyballers are united as one the next time u meet us sia..

hahas..we will prove it to u all de lol..

ppl sms me lei i veri bored lol..sms if can k..

i will love it de k..

n i wan u guys to noe tat

i care n love u guys hu i noe ard me de k..

i will treasure u guys well esp my godsisters n my darling sia..

hope u guys treasure it oso lol..

where would i b if my frenz n u were not der for me?

support..encouragement..movies..sleepovers..neoprints..

late nite call..laughter..n tears..

soon we will be separate wen we age,bringin our sweet n bitter memories along wif us

tears stream frm our eyes as we all graduate,

knowing we wil nvr be 2gether again..

so i really hope u guys treasure wads in front of u..

a star has 5 ends..

a square has 4 ends..

a triangle has 3 ends..

a line has 2 ends..

a life has 1 end..

a friendship has no end..

hope tat u will always treasure our friendship..

hope tat we will nvr lose em..

7 rules to be happy:

1>never hate

2>dun worry

3>live simple

4>expect a little

5>give alot

6>always smile

7>have a cute

fre..like me!!=)

bloody bitch la ..

Friday, August 24, 2007

♥ 6:59 AM

yesterday my parents slap me la..

damm freakin pain la can..

cos of my stupid sister of my..

then my parents sae tat u as the big sister

mus do a good role model 4em to learn..

hey i tell u i oso human lei will make mistake de can

n is lyk no my problem sae until it is my problem de lol..

then sae sae sae then sae umtil my study n then my cca..

so damm pissed of them la can..

helo my dear parents of my pls la..

u all noe i ove my cca if i dun go i dun lyk it de..

n is lyk im in the main 6 la..

i wan to play well lol now everything all so weak liao le can..

n i dun lyk it n i will feel veri pissed wif myself n make others angry de lol..

why cant they jus understand how i feel deep down de la..

i freakin sad la..

no one care abt me i can sae tat lol..

i veri confused la..why my parents always onli noe how to scold me not my sisters?

i hv already try to change liao le can..

then the match on mon wif the cedar gals i can play..

i so so wish to play can..i wan to not i dun wan..

my parents wan me to study la dun wan me go 4 cca anymore la can..

n cos of tis i fight wif em lol..

n i dun feel any freedom lol..

cant go out wif my frenz..

no choice to choose anything..

cant decide anything by myself instead everthing they choose 4 me..

n i dun lyk the way they do it la can..

n i dun hv they courage to tell emt tis la..

wonder wad will happen if i ask em can!!

then 2day in skool..

i cried in skool during ss la can..

recall abt wad happen yesterday lol..

then the whole day my mood was lyk so damm moody lol..

i saw my 2 darling but we nvr chat wif each other sia..

freakin sad oso lol..

BUT i love you!!

dun worry i will be dere wif u de no matter wad k..

then abt me nvm la dun care me oso can de..

i onli noe i sux lol..tats true i think..

4 periods of A maths la..

then we do questions as usually lol..

n durin the break we wen to the disturb the art students lol..hahas..

then we play volleyball in MR CHAN homeroom lol..

play wif yen ton..ujjal..zhou..cheryl..zeb lol..

then i feel tat esther dun lyk her 2day la cam..

so damm quiet lol 2day her not lyk her usual self can

but she sae nth happen lol..

so ESTHER take care k..

n i hope tat u will be hyper lyk b4 not lyk 2day la..

cos i not use to it n i lyk u to be hyper..

after skool sth happen tat whole thing happen in the ava room..

cos we hv meetin 4 the KL trip..

tat BLOODY BITCH..

so wad u big size ar?so wad i small size ar..

wads ur problem..n helo u are the 1 hu started wif it k not me..

if u dun hit i will not hit back k..

wad the shit u doin n u still shout at me so wad if u use the book is still the same k..

then i free so so damm pissed la can..

Thursday, August 23, 2007

♥ 6:22 AM

i feel veri sad 2day lol..

frm trainin starts lol..

so ya la..why la can sumone jus tel me?

why does tis happen on me..

2day my spikin sucks..

service sucks..

recievin oso sucks..

all sucks la even me lol..

why tis why tis happen on me de.

i dun wan can..

can sth jus happen on me so all tis will not happen to me liao le?

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

♥ 6:00 AM

today i cry but no one noe durin CME..
n mr seng nvr cum to skool 2day..
haiz i feel so damm extra in the class sia..
i lyk no frenz lyk tat can..
durin CME..
i sit all alone by myself la can..
the rest all sit in their groups la can..
then wen i join em so damm extra lol..
so i decided to sit all by myself..
i cryin n listenin to music lol..
haiz why my life lyk tat de..

wad is love to u guys ar..
pls tell me k..
i really wan to noe..
hey wonder wen i wil be in love sia..
hahas..
hey guys intro more frenz to me k..
if u wan to la..
so ya not nvm de..
haiz gtg now liao le..